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Todays topic is about repentance and how it helped me grow as a Christian better day by day.
Repentance, a big word isn’t it?
I am a very sinful person, i have done a lot of sins that are included in the seven deadly sins, even disobeyed some of God’s own commandments. I will not go through them as they are quite personal, but mentioning it is enough to indicate that I am very much a sinner with high cost sins.
For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.
Repentance is one of the keys to be a better person, it freed me from my cage that I have been locked in for years, I kept labeling myself for the things that I have done, I have labeled myself worthless, unlovable, weak, dumb, nonsense, useless and many more. My self esteem was down the drain already and every single day another sin has been added I felt like I kept on drowning in this endless pit of sins and I can’t get up.
All of us have become like one who is unclean, and all our righteous acts are like filthy rags;we all shrivel up like a leaf, and like the wind our sins sweep us away.
I will tell you a personal story, I remembered the day when I first went to a Christian worship, it changed my life drastically. I cried a lot because the pastor told us that God is good and he gives us grace even though we sin. Our God is a loving God and he will always forgive us and welcome us whenever we repent. I cried and prayed that I get closer to him, I prayed that God would wash away my dirtiest sins, that God would make me free again.
Indeed sins make you feel caged, locked, Limited.
After few weeks, God answered my prayers in the most bizarre way possible, the way that God only understands, but it worked. God removed a very special person in my life, he’s not dead yet, but I love him dearly, more than anything, literally. Losing him was the most heartbreaking thing that has ever happened to me, this incident lead me to ignite the fire of worship, my desperate need for God’s grace. God answered my prayers in the most bizarre way possible, it was undoubtedly relieving.
God filled the empty hole inside my heart. It is true that God is the only one who can fill our souls satisfaction, not material things, not fame, nothing but God, and God alone. Sure, material things will satisfy us temporarily, but if we seek lifetime satisfaction? Let us seek God, God holds the lifetime satisfaction and fulfillment of our souls.
After seeking God, everything followed, God gave me the grace I needed and I felt free, I felt God’s love, I saw my worth in God’s eyes, I am more than what I think I am, I am a child of God, and that’s what’s important, not my sins and most definitely not my past.
God freed me from my cage of sins.
God healed my pain, I am still wounded I admit but I am no longer bleeding.
But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his son, purifies us from all sin. If we claim to be without sin, we decisives ourselves and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive our sins and purify us from all unrighteous.
If you want spiritual cleansing, I highly suggest repenting.
But how do we start repenting?
Repentance for me starts with acknowledging our mistakes and then changing for the better.
Acknowledging our mistakes is the first step in repenting, it just means that we are aware of our faulty actions and we are humbling ourselves knowing we have sinned. Knowing that we flawed, it is good, it is the start of our repentance.
After acknowledging our mistakes, after humbling ourselves, we change for the better, we try our best to sin less, we fight the temptations of sin, the addiction it gives, whatever it may be.
Acknowledging mistakes without actually changing means nothing, it doesn’t even mean that we humble ourselves. I know that for a fact. I have been the type of person that acknowledges my mistakes but repeatedly does it for no absolute reason. People left me because of this attitude and I have to accept it, the pain taught me to change, sadly.
Repentance is a battle of our soul, we fight for the good, because a person who believes that God is good and literally abuses it. We don’t deserve the grace of God but he gives it anyway because he loves us ever so dearly, we should change and repent for God’s endless love and grace.
Yes, indeed God is forgiving and loving but a sorry with a repetitive mistake is like putting on a tape on a broken plate, it didn’t cure anything, it just slightly binded pieces together, very flimsy, and can be easily broken by the tiniest of things, it is useless too, as a flimsy plate cannot get hold of things.
Sounds so easy, it’s just acknowledging sins, repentance and change. Simple but so hard to fight for, its so hard to be faithful with our promises to God because the temptations of sin can be very persuasive and as a human being we can’t help but fall for it.
We are sinners, we sin everyday, in our daily lives but what makes a person that repents different from the person that knows his sins but repeats his sins intentionally?
When we repent, we try our best to change, and cautiously do our actions, thinking twice before doing something, fighting off the temptations that the evil gives us no matter how hard, but this doesn’t mean that we don’t sin, because we are humans, we sin naturally, but God knows that when we seek God and his loving grace to help us sin less and serve him more, God appreciates it as well as the other little things that we do for him and only him.
Unlike the old me for example, I know I have sinned, acknowledged it, asked for forgiveness, when I am forgiven I get back to my same old ways after a couple of days and then tell them “whoops, my bad” or “this is me, you should accept me for who I am” I just keep on hurting people that I love, I didn’t even try to change, because I know they love me, I know they will forgive me, I abused that. I abused that fact, and when they got fed up, they leave, leaving me with pain and a lesson too. I don’t know why I am such an awful person before, no one deserves such an awful treatment.
See the difference?
Whoever conceals their sins does not prosper, but the one who confesses and renounces them find mercy.
The second key to repentance is forgiving.
Yes, let’s forgive our brothers and sisters, let’s forgive the people who did us wrong, who violated us in a way.
I know its hard, I find it hard to do so too. Pray, God will give you the grace to do it.
Why forgiveness is a part of repentance? Repentance will set you free and so does forgiveness.
For me, forgiveness means humbling ourselves too, not just acknowledging our mistakes but as well as others. That we sin as humans and as long as there is love in our hearts, there’s the grace of our God, then there is our inner peace.
God loves you.
Seek God today, seek his love and his grace, everything will follow.
Repent today, take confession, acknowledge our sins, change for the better.
This topic makes us deeply mature and free at the same time.
Salvation is found in no one else there is no other name under heaven given to men, by which we must be saved